Mixed Feelings


Sometimes when I am speaking with you
     Emotions I feel I can't put into voice
A phrase sounds disjointed
Silence stretches too long
     And my voice starts to crack like a shy little boy's.

Other times when I am talking to you
     Aggression I hear creeping into my tone
Though I mean you no harm
I see pain in your eyes
     From the little jabs that I have carelessly thrown

     The room closes in
     When I see you again
          And I do not know where to begin
     My chest becomes tight
     Should I yell? Should I fight?
          Or just withdraw further within?